Human beings are weird!When we are in emotional pain we usually complain how is that nobody understands us and it seems that nobody cares.At the moments of inner turmoil it is so obvious that we are the only ones with such pain and of course it feels unfair too.
But if we look closer into such human behavior than we realize that the opposite is true.
But if we look closer into such human behavior than we realize that the opposite is true.
Despite my understanding that obsessive self focus(»poor me and my pain«) will only create more suffering,I still go there some times until the whole thing whacks me again in order to wake up!I mean,it's nothing wrong with the process of sadness and crying out to the world.It has it's own place in the evolution and growth.But if we look deeper into energetically structure of self pity,then we can clearly see that in such type of behavior there is a constant demand for attention.It's a pure egoistic state because it is calling attention to satisfy ME,ME,ME,....! And If I find myself in such state,the truth is that it is myself who doesn't care for others because ME is so full of stories and obsessed with the drama of MY life.
A good question then arises:« How much do I care for others while complaining that nobody understands me?« Well,it's impossible to care for others in state of strong self focus and pity,because ME is so convinced that this is what shouldn’t be happening to HIM. Life seems to be unfair and that kind of attitude is painfully satisfying.
The hidden addiction with »ME« can happen without pills or a booze and is a tough one to recognize;not to speak about going beyond it.It has been around for a millions of years and arguably it is the first and only addiction responsible for all the others addictions we know so very well.It is the first answer to the question:»How did certain drug came into the body?«
On the other hand it is in our nature to think selfish and primarily about oneself.We all want to protect ourselves,to fulfill our own desires,to belong either to this man or a woman,to feel safe and mainly to feel worthy and accepted.
So the answer doesn't lie in the commandments how to behave or to reject some of the improper ways of behavior.There is no answer to it,because any kind of holy recipe will soon bring it's opposite side on the surface.All the good intentions have a seed of ignorance in them and not all the good intentions lead to heaven.
Such is this paradox of life,it simply doesn't allow ME to solve it out,formulate or even understand it!
What's left at the end is a mystery and the wonderer.
A good question then arises:« How much do I care for others while complaining that nobody understands me?« Well,it's impossible to care for others in state of strong self focus and pity,because ME is so convinced that this is what shouldn’t be happening to HIM. Life seems to be unfair and that kind of attitude is painfully satisfying.
The hidden addiction with »ME« can happen without pills or a booze and is a tough one to recognize;not to speak about going beyond it.It has been around for a millions of years and arguably it is the first and only addiction responsible for all the others addictions we know so very well.It is the first answer to the question:»How did certain drug came into the body?«
On the other hand it is in our nature to think selfish and primarily about oneself.We all want to protect ourselves,to fulfill our own desires,to belong either to this man or a woman,to feel safe and mainly to feel worthy and accepted.
So the answer doesn't lie in the commandments how to behave or to reject some of the improper ways of behavior.There is no answer to it,because any kind of holy recipe will soon bring it's opposite side on the surface.All the good intentions have a seed of ignorance in them and not all the good intentions lead to heaven.
Such is this paradox of life,it simply doesn't allow ME to solve it out,formulate or even understand it!
What's left at the end is a mystery and the wonderer.